Why?

Why can't i be alone? I can't even make decisions.. I hate it when people ask you what your doing, then you tell them and then suddenly your decision is wrong. So then you have to change you mind to suit them. Why? I hate that. I feel like i have to explain myself to people all the time. Why should i have to explain my own decisions. If something bad happends then its all my own fault and i have brought it upon myself. Whenever this happens i always end up hurting someone else. Though my constant changing of decision. I hate that. I hate myself for doing that. I just want to be alone..

I hate it when people tell you what has happend to them through thier wrong making decision, or if they go on about it for ages and all you really want to do is make your own mistakes.
Leave me alone..

This is the Nicest song in the world :) and i found it first! Well i like to think i have anyway..

Night falls
And towns become circuit boards
We can beat the sun as long as we keep moving
From the air
Stadium lights stand out like flares
And all I know is that you're sat here right next to me
We rarely see
Waning signs in the air we breathe
Right now I feel each and every fragment

This paper trail leads right back to you…
You say you need me to step outside
You spent the evening unpacking books from boxes
You passed me up so as not to break a promise
Scattered polaroids and sprinkled words around your collar
In the long run, you said you knew that this would happen

This is something new
But it turns out it was borrowed, too"why does every let
down have to be so thin?"
Rain explodes
At the moment that the cab door closedI feel the weight upon your kiss; ambiguous

You have to leave.
I appreciate thatBut I hate when conversation slips out of our grasp
You spent the evening unpacking books from boxes
You passed me up so as not to break a promise
The pounding rain continued it's bleak fall
And we decided just to write after all.

The pounding rain contiunued it's bleak fall
And we decided just to write after all....

xxx

Thoughts..<3

I thought its about time I came back to writing this blog of mine. Nothing yet has inspired me to write it such description as i was once able. However i can try to create some kind of ramblings.
Here I go..

I like the way the Sun sets these days, every night this week i have watched it slowly dissapearing behind the trees and down the hills back. I think i like the way that when it just gets past the second tree and is slowly moving down the third trees branches, it spreads a hazy light to the left of the field. It looks pretty, makes all the trees have a yellowy glow. :) It reminds me of something, but i can't quite put my finger on it. It makes me feel happier though. I like remebering things i have seen when its been like this. I away i love it, and in a way i hate it.

I also like the moon, I am deeply in love with the moon. Its so mysterious, and it has a gentle silver glow that makes everthing look pretty. I like the way that if you sometimes look at it, you can see patterns forming on the surface of it. I think the moon is male. The sun and the moon are such opposites, and yet they are both two beautiful things. So it doesn't really make sense. I guess you could say its similar to Love. When two people are complete opposites, they can still have something beautiful about them. So opposites are not really oposites. Thats a nice thought :) I think the sun over powers the moon, she is so beautiful that she glows so bright, but when she sees the moon, she fades out and lets him take over...